Here we go again.

Lovely. Just lovely.

So I open my email yesterday and what do I find? An email from Brian!? wow. We broke up about 6 months ago?.... cool...

I open the email and it's so long winded confession about how he made a mistake and we were always meant to be. Also that he will always love me and he broke up with me because he couldn't provide me with what I needed. Oh yay. I love it. I'll post it at the end with the name's changed. I emailed it to my friends and they couldn't even think of something to say. The last time I talked to him was July. The email talks about how he can't stop thinking about me and how he did somethings he wasn't proud of etc. So why isn't my life a tv show yet?

On the brighter side he says he's apparently saving up money for my laptop which is astonishing. I never thought I'd see the day where I'd being getting that. I should expect a check in the mail after Christmas...

I don't know what it is with ex boyfriends of mine but clearly I'm just way too amazing of a girl because they always come back. Like clockwork they try to get me back and then my current boyfriend will get mad and pissed off and try to beat them up. Then the cycle continutes where that boyfriend becomes my ex and tries to get me back etc etc. Alright so I'm keeping this short because I am too flabbergasted to say anything else. I'm sure I'll have a lovely rant tomorrow.

As Always
-K

The Email:

Hey

I know you don't want to see my name or talk to me but please just read the following...

K(me), i have never found anyone like you. In the brief time that we dated i knew off the bat that you are a special girl. You get me on so many topics and situations. We have so many food things in common, i just cannot believe sometimes. We got along better than great. You are a great girlfriend. I thought you were mean't to be with me forever......

What I did was a mistake that night we broke up. I went home that night and destroyed and did some things im not proud of. And i haven't been the same guy. Since that i rarely talk to my mother now and Im not gonne lie , but ive dated girls since you but it never lasted because they weren't you. Not even close. And ive done some really stupid things i am not proud of. The only happy ending i can think of is that you have found or can find someone better than me. Honestly i am a film student. I do not know where that will lead me at all. You deserve someone that can provide a happy life for you. I can't provide that.

Since the day i met you i realized that you are a strong woman and you want someone that can provide you with secruity and money. And my future can't gurantee that. I just want you to find someone that can provide you with eveything you need to have a happy life. I thought breaking up with you was the right thing to do to give you a life u deserved that i couldnt give you. Being with someone else is probably better then being with me. If making you happy means not being with me then its what im willing to sacrifice. I just want you to have a good life. I will always remember you K. You are one of the only woman i'll ever love with my heart. If any guy hurts you emotionally or especially physically, i will fuck him up beyond repair.

I just hope K(me) that you look at me as a good guy becuase i just was doing what i thought was right for you. Like I told you when we broke up. I cant be the boyfriend you want me to be. I know it been a few months but i just had to get this off my chest. Everytime i see you at school, i just can't think. Your the only person i ever think about all the time. No one can replace that. i love you and i wanted you to be the love of my life but you deserve better than me.

I will always love you

I hope you enjoy the rest of your life.

Brian

P.S.( Im up to 130 on the lap top money for you. Expect a check in the mail after chirstmas.)